It is another gloomy morning. I really don't know what to write here. There are a lot of things that have been running in my mind. I am really stuck in this unproductive life. It seems that everyday is a struggle to survive but my efforts are always in vain. I really don't know what is wrong or am I just keeping myself blinded of the truth that are laid in front of me. In this predicament that I am into right now I have nothing to say but to hope that I can triumph this. It is never easy when you are always bombarded with pressures and issues. It makes you toxic, jaded, and paranoid.
Being unemployed for almost 6 months now is never easy. The pressure coming from different groups of people be it in the family, society, friends, and even to myself. Sometimes I can't help but thinking of taking away my life. I know it is an absurd idea. A solution that most coward and irrational people will do but sometimes I think that it is the best and easiest way to escape the reality of life. The best sample is hanging up myself to death but as always rationalization comes into the scene and will change my mind. There could be more better options to try on than committing suicide. I know you'll agree with me. There have been a lot of people you know that committed suicide. And most of our reactions would be: why did he/she do it? what made her/him do that gruesome action? will he/she go to heaven? he/she could have lived a better life if only he/she did not give up?. But before we judge those people who have resorted to this melancholic decision. let us try to examine ourselves as well. I am pretty sure in one way or another each of us thought of committing suicide literally and figuratively speaking. There are times that we tell ourselves that we can't go on and ending our life is the only solution. Yes, it is reality. Unfortunately for those who have committed suicide they were not able to redeem themselves or served their real purpose AND fortunately for us that were able to have a full grip of our sanity, it is our mission and battle to continue life whatever it takes. Each of us carries our own cross. But it is also not a hidden fact that we have people around us whom we can lean on when we falter, get bruised, and weaken by the weight of the crossed we've been carrying in this lifetime. Our task now is to identify those significant people who can help us survive is competitive life. These people could be your parents, siblings, friends, or even those people you meet in cyberspace. It is a matter of choosing those right people. But the question is How would you know that it is the right person you can trust? Well I'll leave to you the answers. Bottomline, it is always a matter of your choice. A choice founded with correct and rational thinking partnered with magnanimous heart. Do what makes you happy because all good things emanate from a person who has a happy and sharing heart.
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